if eric ever tells me i’m beautiful i’m going to get so red omg. also when we meet up after winter break and get coffee and if he kisses me i’m going to throw my arms around his neck and have my fingers get lost in his hair. i seriously cannot wait for winter break to start and then be over. i am craving him so badly. i only get to see him three more times this week and then that’s it for three weeks. i miss him so so so much for just four days how the fuck am i going to deal with fucking three weeks????!?!?!?!!!
i am floating on cloud nine. fuck i like him so much. i am so happy that he likes me back. i have no clue as to what degree that he likes me but he definitely likes me and i am so so so so so so happy. i cannot stop thinking about him. he is consuming me.
50/50 chance Eric likes me. He listened to the CD I made him which means he does care. And I have his three fav. books which he gave to me to read over winter break which means he wants to see me more. I have decided to ask him out tomorrow for coffee on Saturday… I’m really nervous but I think it will be okay. If he says yes, I will be absolutely ecstatic and I’ll want to kiss him the whole time. If he says no, then I will have to get over him and find someone else, which will be tough, but the issues that are in play right now (which I don’t care about but many of my friends do) won’t matter.
Eric shaved too. He looks cuter now but I loved his facial hair. I’ll just have to adjust. But now I can see his cute mouth better. And he’s trying to quit smoking (I like to think it’s because I asked him about it a couple of times and he thinks I think it’s gross so he wants to impress me ahahah probably not) so he has this enormous electronic cigarette. I missed his flippy hair sooooo much seeing him made my heart pound for the entire lecture.
If we went out I’d be so nervous the entire time. And happy. I’d just be smiling about absolutely nothing. Thinking about him makes me so happy. Seeing him makes me happy. Knowing that he’s in my life and I’ve met him makes me happy. One man in the entire fucking universe is making me an ecstatic fool, how crazy is that?